September 11, 2021

Wisteria Blooms decorating a walkway at the Fort Worth, Texas Botanic Gardens

Dear Readers:

Americans remember exactly what they were doing when the towers crumbled, killing friends, relatives, and first responders in New York. That infamous morning, I was preparing breakfast for me and my husband who was supposed to go to Australia on a business trip when one of his colleagues called. My husband said Carol had told him to turn on the TV.

That’s when I saw the worst news of my life. I watched both towers go down, then I saw where the plane of courageous passengers landed. Until that day, I felt fairly safe in my country. But that feeling dissipated quickly as thoughts that we were being attacked by terrorists filtered through my skull, filling my brain with sorrow and confusion.

I sympathize with the people who lost loved ones. I know what it means to lose a loved one. My Dear Parents are gone. My oldest brother passed away in 2016, and my younger brother passed away last year. I still can’t get used to not having them around. I truly miss them. I’m having a difficult time adjusting to not having them. And I’m slowly losing my sister to Alzheimer’s. Please pray for me. I need to toughen up. I am praying for the folks who lost loved ones. And I pray that our country will prosper and become the powerful nation that it was years ago.

Dear Readers, I hope this day hasn’t been too rough for you. I pray that all those memories will make you and me more resilient. God Bless America!

Help for Tough Times

Mamma Kitty

This morning does not differ from my usual schedule—thank Jesus I made it to another day; take my medication, get dressed, make the bed. Ahead the bedroom door is closed. It used to be open so my Kitty (Klyban) had access to the bedroom, food, water, and his litter box. I try not to sadden myself because I no longer have him, but I have his brother, Marty.

Prayer is part of my daily schedule, especially today, because it is St. Francis’ feast day. I ask him to take care of my husband, sister, Marty (our cat), and Twister, (our dog). Furthermore, I pray for animals and people who are on their own. They need our help to survive during these tough times. I finish my prayers asking Jesus for the usual things, and then I try to do some work on the computer. These days computer work mostly involves trying to help my sister who has Alzheimer’s and lives with us.

Breakfast time comes around so I open my bedroom door with thoughts of visiting my website to tell the world that today is St. Francis’s feast day. With the help of my Rollator walker, I head to the kitchen to make breakfast. Along the way, I visit with Marty for a few seconds as he scurries to the bedroom for food and water. Meanwhile, I fix cereal and oatmeal for my sister. (My husband has a different meal plan, his own.) As I eat breakfast Assisi, Italy, comes to mind. Yes. I was there. For a few hours, I treaded on holy ground. A feeling of holiness drifts into my body as I realize that Jesus walked around that holy city, too.

I don’t have a picture of St. Francis, but I selected a few pictures of my former and present pets. I’m sure St. Francis played a part in their care and in my life. He helped me learn to use my time more efficiently in spite of having Fibromyalgia. I’m not perfect. Because of the pain, I have my moments, but Jesus, St Francis, and their friends have helped me through some very rough times.

Here are the prayers that I daily say to St. Francis and Jesus when I wake up in the morning.

Prayer to Jesus

Dear Jesus, thank you for letting me live another day, and please help me make today a beautiful day.

Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive. It is in pardoning that we are pardoned. It is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Have a nice day! Stay safe, and thanks for visiting my website.

St. Francis of Assisi Feast Day

I love this statue of St. Francis, and enjoy seeing it every day. I hope you like it, too. I pray to him every day, and ask Him to take care of my pets.

St. Francis of Assisi

Today, October 4, 2019, is St Francis of Assisi’s feast day. I am so fortunate to be alive to celebrate his feast day. St. Francis is the patron saint of animals and the environment. Many churches and religious communities celebrate his life, and priests also bless people’s pets. (If you can’t take your pet to be blessed, it is okay to take a photograph of your beloved pet or pets to the priest. He will bless the photo and pray for your pets. My husband and I don’t take our foxhound, Twister, for the “blessing of the animals” ceremony because he would get too excited and might scare people and their pets. Twister’s a very nice dog, though. We’re just being cautious. Our rescue kitty, Mr. Martin, would be traumatized by the crowds. So we don’t take him, either)

I’ve had the following prayer for a long time, and say it every day. It helps me during difficult times.

Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive. It is in pardoning that we are pardoned. It is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Hoping for the best outcome!

Hoping for the Best Outcome www.memurray.com.wordpress.com
Twister checking the backyard from sunroom

May 8, 2018, we took Twister at 8:30 AM for his biopsy. The surgery was supposed to take place at noon. That day I didn’t know what to do with my anxious self. Moreover, the fibromyalgia pain was having a fun time with my body. I wish the pain would tone down. It has been very intense these past few days, and I assume stress is playing a major role. To ignore the pain,  I concentrated on things that had to do with writing, such as looking for a place to submit my short stories. The phone rang several times that day, but they were those blasted Robo calls. Finally, that afternoon we got a call from the emergency clinic telling us that we could pick up Twister.

When we saw Twister, he was his usual self, perky,  and happy to see us. As he quickly and methodically  inspected the doctor’s office, we noticed he had a bandage on his left hind leg, I suppose this is where blood was drawn, and his right foot was bandaged also. He was also wearing a large plastic cone to keep him from unwrapping his bandages and of course from pulling out his three stitches. We thanked the surgeon as we parted with Twister. He came home with medications and antibiotics.

As Bob took Twister to our car,  a man stopped me and asked me about my experience with this clinic. I told him this was the first time that I had had to bring one of my pets to the clinic. The man told me that his dog who was 11 years old had glaucoma, and I sympathized with him. His dog was not with him, but I could tell that the man really loved his dog. He was pacing in the lobby.

I was using my Rollator and was trying to figure out how to open the doors to get out. The man pushed a button to open the doors. And then we both laughed when I said, “I was assuming the doors would open automatically.”

“If they did, it would be difficult to keep the dogs in the lobby, ” he commented smiling. He followed me outside. That’s when he asked me what I was doing at the clinic since the clinic only saw animals by referral.

I explained about what had happened to Twister and the very nice gentleman told me, “Tonight will be a prayer night for animals.”

“Thank you,” I answered almost in tears because the man was so gracious to pray for my dog and his. I walked to my car. thinking that if it was God’s will, Twister would be fine, but if it wasn’t, I prayed for strength because I really love Twister.. He was near death when we rescued him.( With tears in my eyes, I wrote a short story, “They Call Mr. Twister” of how Twister came into our lives. The story is written from his point of view. But, I must warn you, if you are an animal lover, the story might make you cry.)

A about 4 PM, we were on our way home with Twister, who behaved as though nothing had happened to him. He was his usual self, inspecting his surroundings and being playful in the car.  Bob removed his bandages later that evening. Or was it the following day? I really don’t remember. What I remember is seeing the bandage on his right leg where the biopsy was performed. When we removed that bandage the following day, we noticed the three stitches where the biopsy was performed. We didn’t remove the cone. It keeps him from messing with his stitches.

And now we are waiting for the result from the biopsy which will be here tomorrow, Friday or next Monday. The waiting is killing me. It’s a good thing that I like to write. The activity keeps me busy and sometimes makes me forget that I physically hurt.

Twister finished taking his medication and antibiotics yesterday. He is in high spirits and the swelling on his leg is decreasing. He will wear his cone for another week, then the oncologist will remove the stitches and give him another examination. We hope that he will be fine. Again,  I ask my readers, especially the animal lovers, for your prayers.

The wait.

vetclinic/www.memurray.com.wordpress.com
Twister at emergency clinic
Twister at emergency clinic www.memurray.com.wordpress.com
Twister at emergency clinic with my husband

May 7, 2018. Monday, we took Twister to see a veterinary oncologist at the emergency veterinary clinic on the south side of Fort Worth. After a thorough examination, the oncologist recommended a biopsy which would take place the following day.

Monday afternoon, I had an appointment scheduled with my massage therapist, and I almost didn’t go. Physically and emotionally, I felt lousy, but I went anyway.  And I’m glad that I did. My massage therapist is a wonderful lady who not only listens to me, but also gives me an excellent massage. Worried about Twister I told her what had happened to him. I cried, but she comforted me ( she has a dog too) which helped me a lot.

That evening in of spite the fabulous massage, the fibromyalgia pain intensified. I suppose worrying about Twister’s surgery didn’t help me relax or calm down my pain. When I went to bed that evening, I couldn’t fall asleep.  So,  I spent most of the night praying for Twister, my husband, friends, and relatives. In addition, I occupied my mind thinking about  storylines for horror short stories. I recorded the plots on my digital recorder and  eventually, fell asleep.